The blog

I was worried sick about how to make my blog. All the technical aspects, what I was going to write, if it would be pretty or not, but it turned out to be okay. I’m not going to lie to myself and say pretty easy because, well, I didn’t find it so easy (especially the part of convincing myself that the font, color, template, etc. looked fine). However, it was easier than I expected. I tried hard to put up a nice background but after about an hour of depressing failures I gave up. Then I clicked on every button available on the editing page to make sure the blog would be fine, and now I have to do the real hard part. I have to start posting.

Now, I like writing, actually I love it. The only problem, I don’t like sharing what I write as much. Sometimes it feels great to show or tell people about what I write, but in general I just keep it to myself. I think that is probably why I joined the class. I want to, no have to, learn to share my writing. My problem is, I always think it stinks. Really. For some reason when somebody else reads what I write I feel like all of a sudden I forgot all my spelling and grammar rules and my style doesn’t flow. And this might be true, but I have to start sharing because if my writing really is as bad as I think, the only way to improve is by showing my work and receiving input. So, every day I will log on and post a piece of writing. I can predict some will be done at eleven at night when I forgot to do it before, and the result will be a boring little piece; but I also think I will have some good pieces about things that really inspire me. I hope there is more of the former than of the first.

What will I write about though? That is a question I think time itself will have to answer, because right now as I sit in front of the computer I can’t think of anything slightly interesting to write about tomorrow. I guess it will just come to me while I sit, I really hope it will, but for now I have to be content with having a blog and one post. I also hope that I will be able to make the blog look like the web page I have always wanted, but if that can’t happen, how it looks now is okay, right?

As for the class, well I just had my first one and I think it will be fun. Hard, yes, but fun because I will learn to write when I have to (usually it takes a long time before I feel “inspired” to write) and I will also learn how to trust my work. I hope my spelling will improve and I also hope I can get ideas and tips on how to write different things that what I always write (short and long stories).

I have to go now, but I will post again tomorrow and probably every other day for the rest of the school year. I look forward to receiving lots of comments and tips and to watch as the blog grows and fills itself with pieces of writing.

Bye for now,

Mariana Berenguer